Well, this is the one at the top of my list. This is what my life has been about for the past 2 months. Every day and night I keep on thinking about the future, the programmes, everything! I'm currently under some high and heavy pressure from the school due to other CCAs sweeping all the Gold medals possible. Next up is Millennia Institute Symphonic Band. A Silver medal is seriously good enough for a young band to achieve but I guess it is not for this school. We're just unlucky to be in this position.
However, I'll do anything to reach the top. I'm willing to sacrifice my life for this. People may have a bad impression of me (as always) but I don't mind as long as it is for the best of the world. Band actually change my life from a cheerful person into some bitch who only knows how to shout at people. Well, I got my reasons for it. I just wish that they knew. If only they can read my mind and heart.
Besides that, my family is another obstacle. My sister is getting engage on the 6th June. I seriously feel happy for her. However, it's not about her finally being able to meet the right person and have a good life. It's about her getting out of my liability list in the family. Finally I can go home peacefully and treat it as a real place for me to open up my mind. I'll change the 'Dark Tower' name on my phone once she's out!
Another thing I wanna let out is about this particular person. But then.. come to think of it, I don't really know how to start this topic. Or maybe, better to zip it up and just live with whatever I can do? Hmmm, I've never experience this crap feeling before. It's just too scary because she's hard for me to define. At one time it may be the best thing that can ever happen in my life but on the other hand... I don't know.
